I have often wondered how people do it, have so much belief in a dream or a goal that against all odds they pursue it with passion and enthusiasm. I stand back in awe and think “wish I could do that.” Because it’s just not that easy for me.
I start off every week with the best intentions. I make small goal lists for myself and cross things off. I try to remember that I’m a beginner and sometimes it is going to be rough. But sometimes, like this morning, I notice that I have a choice: I can start off defeating myself or believing in myself.
It isn’t always easy to choose to believe in a project when you know your limitations and others make a point of reminding you as well. So I have decided to be kind to myself. To remember why I write: for fun and joy of hearing my characters talking, learning and experiencing, that wonderful sense of accomplishment when a piece of the plot falls into place.
I may not get it right, I may struggle, rewrite and edit until I just can’t stand to look at it any more but I’m not giving up. Not on my dreams. There have been many times when I let my own cruel thoughts or someone’s opinion stop me or change my mind. But not today.
Today I am going to love myself, believe in my dreams and work hard towards my goals. Maybe I’ll have issues, maybe I won’t, the only way I’ll find out is to keep writing and that is what I plan to do.