Choices and Changes

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If you’re like me you chug along through life mostly content to stop and notice the things that have accumulated over time. After four years of working at it I have a loving relationship with my husband, three funny cats and a house. But more than that I can see the person I have become because of these choices and changes.

I used to be a very scared, uncertain person. I delayed dreams and put everything else first. Now I am stronger, I go for the things that I want and I am learning that if I don’t live me, I can’t really love anyone else.

It is always surprising and interesting the way life pushes you into change. Sometimes it is the small thing that pile up and sometimes it is a gigantic leap of faith. This morning I stand mid-air in one of those big leaps of faith. My husband has accepted a job that will require us to relocate, very soon. Though this is a bit over whelming, I know it is the right choice for us.

This isn’t the first time I have made such a leap so it doesn’t feel like life or death, but I remember when it did. I moved right after college to the other side of the United States far away from everything and everyone that I knew. I wasn’t sure those first few weeks if I could stand the homesickness, in an apartment with no furniture and a baby cat.

But I remember that it turned out just fine and I learned that I am strong and that good things do come to those who wait. So as I sit here thinking about the enormity of moving, I remind myself that I have done this before and I’ll probably do it again. But most importantly that I choose it.

I choose to go to a new place and meet new people. I choose to support my husband in his happiness and well-being. I choose to see this as an opportunity and an adventure. I choose to see this as God looking out for us and providing for us. I don’t know how it will all work out in the time line we have been given but I know that it is possible and more than that it is possible to do with joy.

So that is what I am going to do, embrace this change with hope, love and joy; knowing that it is a blessing, even mid-air.

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