So the office is complete and Jared goes to work tomorrow. I am in a slight panic that my “whole” life is not planned out to the millisecond. I know how “type A” it sounds but the hyper organized teacher in me is all up in my creative sides face about my “lesson plans.” I don’t have a new schedule figured out, I don’t know what I want to work on and I’m not sure I can even think past he fact that there is no couch or chair in the living room to sit on.
Aside from that all is well, over 90% of the house it together and as it should be. The boys are settling in and I’ve never seen Sandy be so playful or adventuresome, I think this change has been really good for him. Mr.P (Pascal) has taken over the upper floor of the house. He sleeps there at night and most of the day because the other boys are too busy chasing us around to be bothered.
We are working on a “no cat in the bed room policy.” I know if I can out last them then they will find their own spots around the house to sleep in. Unfortunately, there are not many soft locations, so that is deterring them a bit. But soon we will have some living room furniture.
In the mean time I am freaking out about work, or my lack their of. I think I am going to take a break from the books that I have been working on for the past four years and start outlining and researching a project that I have been thinking about for a long time. It is literary fiction and has no fantastical elements but we’ll see. I’m just so sick of looking at the first three chapters of my novel over and over again. I think I will finish writing the second novel in the trilogy before I go back to it.
I am suffering a bit of stage fright. It’s really all me now. Jared will be gone, we are “mostly” done with the moving. Now I have to write, a lot. I am going to try to get involved at church and in yoga classes to keep my mind and body energized. I’ m really upset that I killed my camera. The lenses are still good but the body is dead and its going to be expensive to replace. It will defiantly not happen before Christmas or my birthday, I don’t think combining both would justify the price tag but I’m going to try to forgo spending my monthly allowance to help.
Okay that is more than enough rambling for now. I love my house, miss my people and am trying to be brave and believe in me. It’s a tall order but what else is worth so much?