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I am not as interesting as I seem: poem

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I am not as interesting as I seem:

Once I believed that I was funny, kind and that people found me interesting

But you have set the record straight.

I can never forget what you taught me.

 

What I had mistaken for leopard print was merely poke-a-dots.

My child like ways, simply childishness.

Compassion as weakness.

In the end, even the sound of my voice made me think I had done something wrong.

 

So now that you are gone, why do I still hear your voice?

Why do I fear what others will see in me?

What if they see what you saw?

Will they feel the same? What if you were right?

 

I don’t believe the things that I once did.

I get tired of fighting your voice in my head.

Because some part of me believes you;

Believes that I am less than ordinary.

A crow among nightingales.

 

Amanda C Nov 2012

 

 

 

The Veil

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If I spoke into the silence all the things thinly veiled behind my smile,

Would you still love me?

I fear the thoughts in my mind and the anger in my heart.

I tremble at the force of their burning.

But to speak…

The coast is so high, the damage so great

That I would rather let you think what you will of me

Than open a door I cannot close.

AC 2011